Letter from dad

Today i got a letter from my father it was dated the 20th of this month and i think its weird that when im down he always seems to know an hes depressed to. He wrote me a letter and he feels horrible about what hes done.. not being here for me and he doesnt know how i feel and he doesnt know what i have wrote on my blog until last night i printed it off and sent it in to him. One thing that really make me break down and cry was when he said its amazing how a some one as small as 5 pounds and 4oz can wrap a 6'3" man around her finger. Anyone that knows me will tell you i'm daddys little girl. We have been to hell and back. I've seen that most people dont want to talk to their parents because of something thats happen.. me and my famiy have been threw some pretty hard stuff and we are stronger than ever. For some reason this is killing me i miss my family soo much. Im not going to say all of the stuff he said in the letter but it really touched my heart and makes me see why i was such a daddys girl and im still am.. while reading that letter i found my self crying so hard. GOD I HATE THIS!!!! July 4th is a bigg thing for my family as most holidays are.. we usually grill out and then later that night try to blow our selfs up.. i usually am the one running for cover because there is no telling what the hell dad came up with no telling what hes built or welded last year was dangerous but fun! Well that is my daily blog im blogged out i guess i will go watch the biography of Johnny Depp and cry and write my dad back!

This it to David

The reason i write this to you because you are my annoying retarded asshole brother. Why do we fight... why do we argue.. because we are brother an sister and as much as i hate to admitt it there is nothing that can change that. You are my other half i wouldnt claim if my life depended on it at times. But when you want to be you are a great brother you will kick any bodys ass that tries to step on me and wont think twice about it no matter how big they are. I hate the conversation we had before you went back.. but words have been said and neither one of use can change that we cant take things back we can say sorry and forgive but we both know neither one of us will forget. I just wanted to say i love you keep your head up i miss you all though i hate to say it.

This is to you momma

Times change and poeple do to just know what has changed has made us stronger. All I can say is the pictures speak for them selfs how much we have all changed but never grew a part. There are several people that have influenced me but none that have done what you have!Although we have had a out battles an some words have been said but we both know were we stand as mother an daughter. You have took care of me and nursed me threw my sickness and held my hand when I thought I was alone turned me in the right direction when you felt that I was goin down the same road you did. I know all you ever wanted for me is the best and I love you for that all those times you were preaching and yelling at me you and dad both didn't want me making the same mistakes you did and I can never say thank you so much for being hard on me sometimes and for givin me a enough string to hang my self at times haha that's the only way you ever knew if did something wrong. Thank you for speaking your mind when you knew i didn't care because that made me always think of what you would think. All the advice u and dad have gave me I hope I can give it to my own one day. Thank you for being my best friend my worst enemy LOL and my mother. You helped me except people for who they are never judge some one never put a label on them everyone is equal.. let them tell their own story and all I can say is THANK YOU. Times have changed and we have taken things for granted and some things to heart but atleast we still have each other. You don't know how much it means to me that I still have you guys with me heathly... happy maybe not extremely happy but I told you things could be worse. I have seen you scrap the bottom of your pocket for money but no matter what you and dad always seemed to make sure we had everything we needed and we were happy. And that taught me that even if you have nothing in this world as long as you got family you have the world you have love. Thank you for standing beside me when I needed your opinion when I moved to Indiana and thank you for making me realize how valuable your parents are and making me realize there is no place like home. I love you and I miss you and although I may never say it thank you for workin all the minimum wage jobs to make sure we had a home and had food thank you for making me see that you and dad are my hero. I don't look at you any different there is nothing in this world that can change that im sorry for the time we have spent apart last year and I would make it up and change a lot of things if I had the chance but what I have over come has made me stronger. I love you and miss you just know that you are my hero and we will make up for the lost times when you get home this time we will be closer stronger and ready to kick butt!!!!!!!!!

Love you
Your daughter
Carrie