Its been one year

One year ago i was counting down the days, One year ago i was for sure i wouldn't have my family back, One year ago i was looking at the negative and praying on the positive, One year ago my father came home to me.....

So much has happened in the last year.. that i don't even know where to start but i know where i ended SO here we go...

so my daddy came home... got a job and the best part is that hes held it and is drug free for almost a year...

my mom and brother got off parole and was granted it because of good behavior

I had a wished ever since this terrible nightmare had began that all i wanted was my father to walk me down the aisle and my brother to see it happen because i only had 1 brother and like it or not one day it will only be me and him sooo god granted me my wish and he threw in something extra that day...... they all were sober.. i couldn't ask for more.. On September 14th of 2008 i was married my father gave me away and my grandfather performed the ceremony but unfortunately you cant have your cake and eat it too.. so god did grant me all of those things but i had to pay something back ...the day of my marriage i had dreamt of my entire like was happening right before me everything was perfect and then i was awoke at 6 in the morning to what was left of hurricane IKE he made his presence known he blew and he rained he also trapped most of my friends and family in their homes and kept them from coming i was up set it was suppose to be more than 100 coming but all that mattered to me and him was that we were there and this was the day that we had waited on for 7 years and finally it was about to happen the last moment before i walked out i bent down and kissed my niece and said go get em' i turned and looked at my dad and i could see this man begin to start crying i wondered what he was thinking but i was afraid to ask because i didn't want to cry he looked at me as we both knew it was about time to take my final walk holding his last name he said you look very pretty and i had to take slow deep breaths to keep my tears in.. and then there it was the music we were to walk to as he began to walk i realized i wasn't moving he stopped and looked at me i was thinking what the hell is my problem why aren't i moving FEET DON'T FAIL ME NOW.. we began to walk realizing that all eyes were on me wanting to run but didn't know if i wanted to i pulled him tighter to me and counted my steps.. I seen Logan and his eyes swelled with tears my grandfather tearing up he asked who gives this beautiful little girl away my father fighting back the tears and his voice breaking says her mother and i turned to him kissed him on the cheek and whispered in his ear i will always love you daddy and he broke he stood by my brother as the ceremony went by and then it was over before i knew it and the only thing i remember was you may kiss the bride and i announce to you Mrs and Mr and then that was it i walked out into the hall way and broke into tears not of sadness but of dear god its done i didn't plan for this i didn't want to cry my brother walked out balling i never seen that and then my father holding my niece and nephews hands runs out hugs me and we both cry for alittle bit and then i seen my brother crying and we hugged and cried alittle while then i seen Logan he was hugging his mother trying not to cry and then we found our selves holding each other crying..... it was a very pretty ceremony then i was time to party mine and my fathers dance was to faith hill and Tim Mcgraw's butterfly kisses it perfect song we both cried all the way through it...

Me and my new husband went to Jamaica for our honeymoon it was so beautiful i got to go zip lining through the jungle which was pure awesomeness!!

Now its been almost a year we looked around and where the year has went i don't know it has flown by and i pray to god the rest of my life doesn't go by this fast i cant stand to let go and to be left standing by my self with no one...

We both have great jobs and I'm going to school.. i don't know whats next i want children in the future but my husband doesn't I'm sure that he will soon.. we are young and our lives should be full of adventure and excitement!!

Other than that not much has happened in my year im looking forward to fathers day and my dads 48th birthday i cant wait till 50 because hes getting the biggest birthday party of his life!!!!!

My mother just has surgery on several different things they found tumors and cysts on her ovaries and uterus and they think she has cancer on her liver its a guessing game for the doctors they dont really know anything other than they want money!