Just Writing

Well decided to go a head and write for my number 1 fans readin material.. since they get up in the morning and read my depressin blog KIDDING haha gotta keep ya entertained. Betta know who i am.. get beat up hehe :)

What did i say in my last entry..."id ask my self if things could get any worse and trust me they can" well i think i jinix my self every time EVERY TIME i open my big mouth and i jinix my self mom and dad got busted again for like the 300th time why does it bother me any more i should just kinda shrug it off but i dont it like breaks my heart. Last night i was walkin my dog and i was lookin up at the stars ( for some reason i have some weird thing with stars dont ask) and i felt so empty in side like there was no fight any more but no matter how much i say im done i dont care anymore i do... i do care because they are my mom and dad and ill only have one mom and dad and i know if i was in the same situation that they would help me... after talkin to some one tonight about the whole problem made me feel alittle bit better. i been going back and forth to the computer lookin at there pictures on the jail website thinking about what i could say or if i was going to say any thing cause all the stuff i have said up till now went in one ear and out the other well once again i dont wanna be right and i am.

I just wish things would get better but i question that cause all the bad things that happen ya'd think god may shine a little light on me nope anything that possibly can go wrong to me will!! I just feel lonley and empty reality hasnt sunkin yet! Dont really know where to turn or what im doing or if i actually care i just know in a couple months ill be better i wont be lonley anymore..

DONT KILL THE A/C!!!!!