Bored Thinking

Someimes you do things that you do not want to but they are always good for the other person. I've done alot of bad in my life and also a lot of good. Sometimes all the good you've done doesnt make up for all the bad. God keeps punishing me for all the bad ive done. Last month was a very depressing month for me it was the anniversay of my best friends death becky adams. She died 3 years ago in a car crash it was one of the hardest things for me to take in but i did and each year i hurts a little bit more. Everyone ive ever loved has been takein away from me and if you've read my blog you would know that i say that alot and its very true.. My grandmother who is like a mother in 2002 my best friend in 2003 my parents go to where they are in 2005 2 times. I do all i can to help then but sometimes it feels like it isnt enough will it ever be?!