Facing My Fears

Well yesturday was the day i'd face my fears and bite my lip no matter how mad i was or how much i wanted to cry i had to walk in to that jail with my head held high and be strong i seen my mom first at 1pm i seen her for like 15 minutes. The moment i layed eyes on her i felt so horrible i wanted to give her a smoke (even tho i dont have one cause i dont smoke) id die gettin her one and tell her everthing was going to be ok she saw me and she started cryin sayin "what have i done" i told her everything was goin ok i felt so bad i promised my self i wouldnt cry when i saw her it took everything in me to not cry but life goes on i guess then i seen my dad at 1:45 pm i seen him for 15 minutes it was just as bad but seein my mom was the worse i hated seeing her like that, that was the first time in my entire life that i had seen her that and my dad he was bad seeing him in jail it crushes a girls dreams specially if your a daddys girl then they tell me what to do with their stuff and their house and get them a lawyer a new one and i go to my uncles house to do all these things and when i walk in everybody hates me i dont know what to do every body blames me for what mom and dad said its not like i made it up or told them to say it.. if thats how they feel then me being the most responsible child then id do the same thing that they are. But once again life goes on and i hope i can get my mom out because im just so tired of doing it all my self i need them here to help too or at least one of em'