Well yesterday it has finally happened my dad finally got moved closer to home its been a little over a year since hes been this close to us and i know how much a relief it is for him and me its like a burden has been lifted off my shoulders.

Me and my mother always seem to fight she thinks she knows it all and well i know i know it all....... right? That woman will drive you nuts we are always arguing over something it doesn't matter if its that I'm tieing my own shoes wrong she has to speak her opinion and quite frankly I DON'T GIVE A SHIT! AHH i already feel so much better. I'm the type of person that you can tell me how to do something 10 thousand times but I'll decide if i want your help or not and if you tell me i cant the only thing i want to do is show you how many ways i can and then tell you how many ways i could get away with it. I don't know I'm starting to wonder if her getting off the drugs is such a good idea i sometimes find my self reassuring my self that its for the good and someday it may take the rest of her life but someday she will be normal again i love her and want her to be straight and no more meth and weed and pills but shes about as mouthy as a damn teenager. I read some where that the age you pick a drug up your mind goes back to that age when you try to put it down like my mom picked the drug up at the age 16 so I'm wondering if her mind set is really 16 HELL i don't know! I know for every hit of meth you do it takes like 2-5 years to leave your body so SHES SCREWED! I don't want to fight with her i really don't i try to agree with her and then she gets so damn pushy and demanding and i hate it i just want to look at her and tell her shut the hell up your going to get your self in trouble. Shes dieing to go see dad and i understand why she hasn't seen him in 2 years but i don't want her to keep pushing her parole officer until he gets mad and says the hell with it you get more time i think she did the crime shes just going to have to wait out the time. OHHH and the other day she was reading a letter from my dad about how he wishes he was out and of course i made the comment if you guys would have just stayed out of trouble you would be together right now she looked me in the eye and grew these huge harry balls and said "I THINK WE HAVE SUFFERED ENOUGH WE HAVE DONE OUR TIME THAT SHOULD BE GOOD ENOUGH" really cocky shaking her head at me like shes having a seizure then of course the whole time shes trying to piss me off I'm saying to my self I'm my head "oh really" i looked at her dead in the eye shaking my head just like her getting cocky and said "oh really Ive put my entire life on hold for you gave you money when i didn't have food to eat went in dept 600 dollars still haven't got out of that and I'm still standing I'm still fighting" she looked at me when i was done i could have done and said anything like what was going threw my head GROW THE FUCK UP but i didn't i sat there and had a starring contest with her until one of us looked away.. well... i won!