Ever feel like giving up saying the hell with every thing.. i guess every body has their day and i have had quite a few of them and to day my mind is full tired of thoughts that repeat them selfs.. its pretty bad you can prove your self wrong. I just want to give the world the finger and walk away..Those you thought were friends arent ive learned to not let anyone get to close to me because i have only had one friend that hasnt talked shit about me run out on a fight and leave me there to do it my self, use me in any kind of way. A true friend and they are so hard to come by now days and once you get a friend like that you still dont hold them that close well i made the mistake of holding so close and like sand i held it to tight and it slipped away.. she passed away... the good die young... Shes in my thoughts every day my mind still talks to her as if she was here i look at pictures of her to just think about the times we spent to gether... Rebecca (Becky) Louise Adams you are the greatest thing that has walked in and walked out of my life you taught me that friendship is so hard to come by, dont ever let any one tell you you cant because the hell with them you can, stand on both feet by your self dont depend on no one to be there when you fall.

I pray everything will turn out all right when my mom gets out i need her more then ever and i need her with out the drugs i need a mom a friend a teacher and a tour guide because i cant do this all my self.