At this moment in my life i dont even care anymore. Im so tired of being fucked over by my work by my life my everything. I would hang my self but i need someone to kick the chair out fromm under me. Id slit my wrist but thats a pussys way out and well its messy. I would drown my self but well who really wants to go out like that. Just when i thought i was going some where in life HA RIIIIIIIIIIIGHT! Thats what i get for thinking i guess. Well i got my own store finally got what i been working so hard for now i dont want it any more i want it to go way! I went back and talked to WKCTC and got the chance to go to college but work would cause me to not be focused either way im screwed imagine that! October 22 i go to Nashville for 2 weeks for training i dont want to go i just wish i didnt have to do this anymore now they have officially fucked me so hard i want to walk out of the job period i want to toss my keys at the next person that walks threw the door and say well its your problem now. Things with him arent so great anymore all we do is fight and argue i dont want to be around him right now i wish he were a thousand miles away all he wants to do is tell me what to do and how i should do it when i really dont give a shit anymore. We watch tv in seperate rooms we cant stand to look at each other we say things that shouldnt be said to each other if you "love"them. I dont know whats going on but right now i think i just want to be left alone for quite sometime we arent ok my life isnt ok and i think that i want away from it... you cant say nothing to him about it because then he acts like he is 2 yrs old and argues about EVERYTHING.