U know your at the bottom of life when you give up on everything youve ever known the last six years of my life has been hell and i will be the only one to sit here and admit it it has been hell would i do it all over again not at all do i regret the things i have done or said every damn one of them can i do anything about it.... yes i believe i can i can pick up the little pieces of my fucked up life and toss them in to the firey depth of hell and and take this fucked up life that he has so wonderfully picked for me and start all over again doing the things i wished i had done and making the right choices and seeing the people i want to see no one hovering over my sholder or tryin to be my daddy i have one of those already just one and hes sittin in Marion Adjustment Center and i love him with all my heart. Time to say the hell with fucking lieing ass men and hello Carrie.
Why am i doing this he asks because i feel like it and i have nothing better to do with my fucked up life then to make him fuckin suffer with me. I woke up this morning and told my self it was pick on him day he is my target for the day hell its a celebration we will make a week out of it any one wanna join?! So i wake up with the mind set that i hated him sooo damn much that i was going to get on his myspace and think of ways to piss in his wheaties he made it very simple for me oh yes no challenge needed i logged on to his my space what he does it to mine well he had a message i was like hmm wonder from who i check it and its from some girl he once knew in vincennese or where ever the fuck indiana sayin she has his movie well if i know L as well as i know L he doesnt let just any t0m dick and harry borrow his movies she was sayin she has his movie and he had hers how funny is that... ITS FUCKING HALARIOUS so i go to the girls profile still tryin to figure out how to work this damn internet and lap top as confusing as it is. i get bored with this girl and i go to his sent messages and there sat a girl named crystal suprising enough i couldnt find where he replied to her it says he replied or is the computer goofing up so i sit and cuss at the computer for about a minute i go to his trash..... (now if your a true myspacer you know once you delete something you have to go to his trash and delete it too) so any way there are about 3 deleted message the last one deleted was from a girl named stephanie now L has talked about this girl like a dirty slut ooooh yeah shes married and dating and seen her at the golf course with a nother man and has a child hell i dont know he pulls this shit out of his ass or something so i read his message to her and imediatly it pisses me the hell off and then i read her message HEY BABE well ive only known two kinds of people that have ever said that to a friend 1. a really old southern lady or 2. plain and simple a slut and well she wasnt number one so any ways here is there message
~Steph@nie~
http://www.myspace.com/88925995
Date:
Sep 20 2006 9:22 AM Flag spam/abuse [ ? ]
Subject:
RE: Hey babe!
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I knew Josh wouldn't be happy...he messed up, cuz it will only get worse. So anyway, sorry I wasn't talking much last night, I had to get ready for work. Last night was my first night of bartending. I have been waitressing, but now I am making the money ya know? You should come see me one night. So how are things going?? What are you in Nashville for? I went and seen the Hinder, Nickelback, Chevelle and Hoobastank concert. Did you get the chance to go?? Talk to you later!! ----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: Logan Date: Sep 18, 2006 7:53 PM Hey whatcha been up to...long time no talk...sorry, but atleast im not as bad as Josh which he suprisingly came and saw me the other day. He said hes hating his marrige. Love the new pics...lol..still kicken myself...Neway im in Nashville for two weeks so give me a call... Later Logan
my heart starts racing my hands form a fist im raging im ready to kill this fucking whore and him too if i could have gotten my hands on either one i probably would have well i tell him we need to talk he says he doesnt know why... of course deny thats what i wanted you to do play the game right little dick so he does he claims no harm no foul boy does he got life fucked up im so mad because hes lieing threw his fucked up teeth i wanna knock em' out of his head. so i begin to tell him what else i found i wont get in to the rest but he says im a shit starter see hes beginning to remember i woke up this morning and made a day out of it. He wont admit hes wrong nor will he admit im right so he goes and leaves while hes walking out the door im betting my self hes calling her and telling her what happened i just rained on there parade p here i am stuck in nashville tn because his dumb ass brought me here after me asking to stay at home becuase i was tired throwin up the entire way the both of us then hes so dizzy he cant drive i dont know where the hell im goin cant find my way out of a wet paper bag i get us here what the hell and then this... the hell im done with six years with him i never been so done in my life i dont even feel the slightest sad im sure it will come and im sure it will go but im not getting back with this fuck face.
